Ambiguity, we meet again.

Thanks to Timehop, I know that exactly one year ago today I was able to share with everyone our plan to leave Charleston, SC for Raleigh, NC. We were idealistic and hopeful. We'd decided to take a risk on two levels. Because one risk isn't enough, let's do two at the same time. We were moving to help support an organization that hadn't actually launched in Raleigh. We were also moving to take advantage of what we hoped would be a promising, stable opportunity for our family and our future. We were looking to settle down. *Sigh* It was a beautiful dream. Of course we knew things wouldn't work out the way we expected, they never do. And yet the results are always surprising. I'm still standing in amazement at how things have unfolded since last September, and honestly, I'm not sure what our lives are about to look like. I just know that God is doing something. One day I'll be able to look back and say "Ohhhh, so that's the point! I had to go through that to end up here."

And here isn't always a geographical location. Sometimes here is a new place in my heart. A place where I've learned empathy and compassion for people in a way I could never have understood before. A place where I learn that even though anger might be justified, I have to let it go anyway. Hopefully BEFORE I lambast them in person/over the phone/in public. Although I'm still not convinced that shaming isn't sometimes very helpful and useful. But I digress. I still have some lessons to learn obviously.  =)

Of course I have to be ambiguous. Again. I hate ambiguity. HATE. IT. But I can't give life details, and I can't keep this all to myself. Therefore, ambiguity. I can say that although the last year has been hard in so many ways, we've weathered this one better than all the other life changes we've put ourselves through so far. And I think that's saying something. We've done marriage in college, baby in college, military activation in college and after, two more kids, buying a house, selling a house, moving, moving, moving, moving, job change, job change, both working, neither working, homeschooling, etc. You get the picture. We've actually LEARNED something and gotten better at working through life together. For the first time, I'm not stewing in indecision and worry over how things are going to end up. It will end up. That's all I have to know right now. I have a to-do list for today a mile long and stewing is not on it.

So you see? God used all of these things to make us the people we are today. I'm pretty sure I'm going to be the most amazing person on earth in another 50 years.  I obviously haven't learned humility. I'm sure that lesson will be super fun.


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